went to nenek's hse on saturday morning to visit baby sara :) she looks different but still cute as ever. nenek wasn't around coz she left for brunei earlier that mrng to attent the sultan's new baby's cukur jambul with her bestfriend and cousin, nek joyah :) she'll be there until thursday. lol i hope she's having fun :) had lunch and played w sara for a while then went to bangsar w kakak. went for threading then had a bite and alexis. walked around BV for awhile and then headed home. 

8pm - 9pm; me and kakak switched off all the lights in the hse for earth hour! :) watched project runway in the dark, lol. i'm glad i got to participate in earth hour eventhough honestly, i couldn't really feel the difference. hihi. 

went to OU w mama and papa on sunday mrng. papa did some shopping the night before but still needed to get some running shoes. he also wanted to get one of those gym bicycle thingies. lol. he bought me a digital skipping rope coz for some reason i wanted it lol. okaaay i've been wanting to lose weight since, forever, so i think this might be a good start. hopefully. hihi. HAHA. did some shopping for myself too, bought a few new tops and bras as well :) had lunch at carl's jr afterwards coz mama and papa wanted to try it out. 

skipskipskip.

felt a ketumbit growing at the bottom lid of my right eye. surpressed the urge to rub my eyes, felt like dying, wanted, NEEDED to scratch so badly. went to sleep hoping that it would be gone by monday mrng.

had class in the mrng and went home during lunch coz i had a really bad flu which was getting worse throughout the day. by now it's quite evident, how i get sick so easily and how weak i actually am, heh :( so anyway. went home and had a rest coz the family would be coming over for my birthday barbeque that night. henek, nek noon and aunty mila came first :) after that papa's bestfriend uncle joe came w his wife aunty shan and youngest son jojo. lol. yaya, aunty siti, uncle yan, aunty pat, eva and her two friends came too. lin, zaki and baby sara couldn't come coz lin and zaki already rsvp-ed to their friend's wedding that same night. had loads to eat; ikan pari, lamb, chicken, prawns, beef, potato salad, mushroom soup, salad, garlic bread, jell-o and strawberries and cake. mama couldn't get me the personalised my little pony birthday cake coz apparently it takes 2 weeks to prepare and there wasn't enough time. so i had to make do w/o the birthday cake i so wanted :( i was really excited abt it but it's okay i guess :( got a few presents and $$$ too which i sooo can't wait to spend! :D yayyy!

was kind of down coz i couldn't celebrate w syith or fanna and the rest :( syith coudln't come home think weekend coz he had tonnes of work to finish up and i knoww i said it's okay coz his work is important and i don't want to get in the way but the realisation of him realllllly not being around for my birthday wasn't that nice :( thought i could rely on my bffs to make me feel better but it turns out that they didn't hv anything prepared for my birthday, at all, so yeah. s'not like i was expecting it. okay maybe i was, a little. but they didn't come to the rescue like i thought/hoped they would. hmmmmm :(

27th of march 2008. i turned 19 today :) alishia, julian and eza took me out for lunch today. it was supposed to be a surprise but alishia was being so obvious :P and i had a pretty good idea of where we were headed. as soon as she said it starts w 'M' and has 6 letters i knew for a fact that we were going to monte's in bangsar :) hihi one of my fave restaurants. ordered heaps of food; chicken nachos, garlic and cheese escargot, mango & shrimp cocktail, sirloin steak, spaghetti carbonara, etc :) was bloated even before i decided to finally stop eating. thank you so much for the lunch and all the presents alishia, julian and eza :)

went back to college after lunch and they had a cake for me, w 1 big fat candle and 9 little ones :) thaaank you so much! hihi.

for dinner, mama cooked my fave lauks :) among them; daging kering, telur masin & ikan masin. yes i'm v easy to please and satisfy, hehe :) doesn't take much to make me happy. anyway. day 1 of my birthday weekend was awesome :)

had malaysian studies today, handed in our group project and got my period after class. speaking of my period. it so happens that the last time it occured was on the 13th of march and ended somewhere around the 19th or 20th. merely a week after and i get it again. something's not right. panicked a bit coz i hv a history having to do w all this menstrual shits. waited for mama to pick me up from college. eza waited w me in the lobby which was v nice of her. just wish she didn't hv to see me crying like an idiot coz my tummy hurt so much. some indonesian boys whom i always see around college looked on curiously and gave me the thumbs up sign asking whether i was okay or not. haha that was kind of cute and now i feel sort of bad for just turning away after giving them my "i am not in the mood" face. haha bitch. anyway. missed ms yvonne's replacement class that afternoon coz of my period cramps. went home, took some pills and texted syith saying that i felt like dying blablabla overall being my usual whiny self. gave up waiting for him to reply and fell asleep annoyed and in pain. woke up around 6 and syith still didn't reply. i know that even if he did reply my needy texts, there's no logical way that he'd make the tummy cramps go away but i'm sure a concerned text would've made me a bit happier in the least. never came. anywaaay. texted him again and again coz i was still having tummy cramps and i was in no mood to tolerate not being pampered at such a crucial time. sometimes i wish boys had periods too. then they'd know how much it hurts and how good it'd feel if they got a text saying something, ANYTHING to make 'em feel better. he finally replied around 8 something, saying that he'd left his phone in the room and it wasn't w him. i hate these kind of situations, situations where there's no one to blame. it's not like he deliberately chose not to reply but somehow that just wasn't good enough for me and i was in no mood to get all mad at him so i just said i had work to do and i'd talk to him later. which i think was a fairly good thing to do considering the fact that it was mere hours to midnight & my 19th birthday.

12 am. kakak comes into my room and wishes me happy birthday, followed by texts from friends and finally a phone call from syith. more texts came after that and to be honest i wasn't expecting edzmir and zariq to remember, but they did and that was nice :) syith's friends from perak wished me too and i thought that was really sweet of him, getting his friends to wish me & all :) qila, hanila, yusra and even fyra sang happy birthday through the phone and we talked for a while until qila's phone ran out of crdt and we continued texting instead, haha. fanna's wish was the most creative :) woke up the next mrng and papa wished me before going to work, and mama wished me as soon as i came down for breakfast :)

i haven't blogged in a while and it's not like i'm obliged to anyway and it's not like i hv regular readers LOL so i don't really know why i even bother. BUT. to satisfy myself w the content feeling of jotting down every single detail of things that might hv happened in the past few days, i shall continue to blog, later, that is. 

and,

thank you for the birthday wishes! some ppl might hv forgotten, or buat buat lupa. but it's okay :) i'm sure i'll remember yours. this yr's birthday was sort of the best, in a way. no i didn't celebrate my last yr of being a teenager w my BF nor my BFFs. but it was okay on a whole. seriously. BUT it could've been better. oh well. i've been blessed w great friends who unfortunately don't gv two fucks abt celebrating w me, or how much it would hv meant to me :) but like i said. it's ok. coz i had great 19th anyway. i was surrounded by family and ( not-so ) new faces that i've come to appreciate oh so dearly.

anyway.
i will write more later.

SOMEONE ate my lays potato chips and i'm fucken pissed coz i'm a fatty like that and i get mad when my food goes poof MISSING. 5 ppl in the hse and one cat who practically lives to eat but i doubt he's the culprit coz the chips were sour cream & onion, not tuna flavoured or anything fishy like that. HMMM. papa mama kakak semuaa cakap it wasn't them. so that leaves kak wati. i know she's a little plump and all but she just doesn't seem like the type who would STEAL my stash of 'tatoe chips. eeeee kenapa semua tak nak mengaku! i know it's just chips but it's the thought behind it that matters to me. kalau dah buat salah and TERmakan tu bagitahu je laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! i want my chips :(

okaaay i haven't been updating :)

monday - went to petaling street with julian, bernie, michelle, alishia, shu yi, sin yee and khai rue for drawing class. had to take photographs of architectural structures, etc. met up w ms yvonne at mc donalds and showed her our photos. headed back to college after that. was sooo tired. today was extra hot :( went to OU, bought cotton candy and got a free balloon :) hihi.

tuesday - class as usual, boring stuff. not much happened. lalala :) ok actually i can't really remember.

wednesday - malaysian studies. kerja kursus due next week, dieee! :( had to stay back at college to finish up our drawing project. didn't do much though, hee.

thursday - prophet muhamad's birthday! hihi. public holiday. buuut. had to meet up w the others to do our drawing project anyway. drove to college, weeeeee for the first time :D haha mama was beside me though. met up w the others and went to khai rue's apartment in pelangi utama. sooooo lawa ok :) i wanna live thereee. hehe. had cendol and rojak for lunch, then continued doing our work. alishia had to go home coz she was feeling dizzy after eating the butterscotch chipsmore cookies, hee. so kesian :( hope she's feeling better by now, hihi. didn't sleep. ok actually we did, for 1 hr je. skipskipskip.

friday - passed up our project and went homeee. wasn't sure if we had islamic studies or not that afternoon and eza didn't come in the mrng so i thought she tak datang at all, so i went home, slept straight away. had lunch, then mama & papa said me and kakak hv to go to tabung haji to buka account soooo okay sacrificed my snooze to get it over w je lah, malas nak pergi hari lain. theeen papa said he wanted to get some stuff at OU so i was automatically AWAKE :D hihi. got some stuff from zara then had dinner at delicious. heee ate so much, papa and mama pun terkejut LOL. okay fatty. lalala otw home msgd syith and tanya if he dah mkn ke belum and he said belum so decided to go out and teman him makan :) heee i was being so diam and annoying that night idk whyyy but i was and it was weird but nothing happened lah kan, hee alhamdulillah. ok skipskipskip. eza texted saying that actually there was class that afternoon and she went :| lol. but only 4 turned up coz the german students said that today tak ada class so there was alot of confusion, lol. then mr al mengamuk then as revenge to the german students, he gave soalan bocor for our finals. heeeeeeee thank you eza nanti bagi i tau :D lol. she said it's so susah like tak faham punya type of questions, heh diee.

saturday - syith woke me up daaaaaamn early coz he didn't get any sleep the night before, heh. went to the curve for breakfast and a movie. watched horton hears a who heeeee it's so cute!!! lol. the cinema was full of toddlers and little kiddies and their parents. LOL. me and syith were the only teenagers around, haha. oh well :) sooo comel lah the movie. goooo watch it cepat! :) after that had lunch at dome coz syith is officially has an addiction to the espreski. tak habis habis :) saw uncle yeop too, heee. the kids weren't around though, THANK GOD. omgg can't imagine layaning them, dah lah syith was there lagii lah they'll make a big fuss heee. skipskipskip. went homee. watched oc w mama, lol. she's so semangat! haha. had dinner and then bathed. watched wallace and gromit : curse of the were-rabbit LOL hihihi syith's favourite movie!! hahaha so comel :)) watched it half way je coz i was soo sleepy but i recorded it so nanti lah continue watching, lol. haha tak tahan.

sunday - was woken up reaaaaal earlyyyy again by syith. heh. tak tidur lagi lah tu :| had breakfast at ttdi jaya the usual place lah. then mama & papa passed by, haha then buat muka annoying trying to be mad but tak jadi then lambai lambai hahaha ok tak tahan. skipskipskip. they passed by again sajee jee nak jadi even moree annoying :] haha. then syith jokingly said sempat lagi nak pg dome for another quick espreski tapii i tau he memang nak pergi pun :P heee. but we didn't. lalala then he said nak make his own. cheh macam reti je? bahaha :D siap beli crunchie nak buat, lol. then we went homee. then i tried to isi minyak on my own. HAHA so foolish. then the bangla man came over and helped me :] thank you mister!

kak wati called me down yesterday afternoon and told me that some old man was downstairs, with a chicken. a real, live chicken. ok, rooster to be exact. anyway. i couldn't really recognise the guy, but he seemed v familiar. lol. so anyway. he started going on abt how the rooster was 'nakal' and 'ganas' and got into a fight w another chicken and blinded one eye. er. ok still no clue why he gave the chicken anyway. he tied it to a tree in the courtyard and asked what time papa will be home. ok borderline weird. i was like whoooo is this guy why is he so familiar. so anyway when he left, i called mama and asked her if she or papa was expecting a chicken to be delivered. they were as clueless as i was. so i told kak wati to lock the side gate, just incase. after much discussion and thought w kak wati, she finally mumbled something abt security and that's when it hit me. that old man was our security guard that comes every night. no wonder i couldn't recognise him in broad daylight :S haha. so kak wati decided to name the rooster jeffrey. lol.

went out w syith around 2.30 and decided to go to the curve. went to the sony centre first, to check out cameras :) hee. i already know which one i'm gonna get. after that had sushi for late lunch and syith was happy to see the sushi-monster side of me as i shamelessly took plate after plate after plate off the conveyor belt and ate like i haven't done so in 4 months. heee. he said he likes to see me eating like that. i guess i don't really hold back when it comes to eating sushi coz it's healthy. LOL. or so i like to think. well compared to the other junk i eat every other day. checked out movie listings but there wasn't much choice so we went to dome for drinks. found out that syith knows sooo byk of kakak's new acquaintances, haha. and all these new found connections started popping up, heh. went to OU afterwards and watched 'the deaths of ian stone' which was ok lah. went to dome again coz syith wanted another espreski :S amazes me howww &  whyyy he's not fat yet. went to uptown after that to eat chicken rice :D yes the one that's so sedap tu. but i didn't finish. coz i was still full from all the sushi, lol. went home and watched the election results w mama and papa and kakak until 1 something then went to bed.

woke up at noon and went downstairs to read the newspaper. so depressing :( but it's ok lah i guess. i hope so. insyaAllah. watched tv until 2 then bathed and went to the curve w mama and papa. got my new camera :) the sony cybershot t70 in pink. it's so pretty! lol.

wanted to go out w syith again tonight but papa tak bagi. SO ANNOYING. he said i've been going out too much. what the chicken. i only go out on the weekends coz that's the only time syith's around and it's not like syith comes back EVERY weekend pun. EEE. and it's not like i've ever gone past my curfew pun. and i never sneak out. and i don't do anything bad. i don't misbehave. ok maybe a bit but not that much. he just won't let me and kakak GROW UP and it's so annoying and it's making me even more tak sabar nak MOVE OUT. he thinks that by babying us he's gonna keep us close to him forever. he doesn't even hv recent photos of me and kakak in his office, instead he has photos of us when we were SMALL KIDS, like 3-5 y/o kids. and whenever we hv open hses or whatever all his collegues will be like, OH DAH BESAR RUPANYA, ingatkan kecil lagi. YEAH, you wish lah pa. it's not like i don't like spending time w my family or whatever but i don't ever make a big deal if he backs out of family plans coz of golf or whatever. equality lah. i hv a life of my own too. i'm 19 and he still treats me like i'm fucking 4 y/o. and mama keeps complaining that i haven't started driving on a regular basis yet, but everytime i actually WANT to drive, papa will start saying things like, KENA KE, tak payah lah, etc and he'll keep on making excuses on why i shouldn't drive. for e/g : dah lambat (padahal it's only what, 8pm?) and then he'll say it's dark (duh that's why cars hv lights!) and then he'll use the age-old excuse of oh it's not you i don't trust, it's the other drivers on the road. EEE. how lah to grow up and be independent like this? the truth is the more he does this the more i feel like breaking away. it's just so annoying. orang lain pun ada anak perempuan jugak. takde pun paranoid mcm dia. and they don't turn out to be whores or drug dealers or crackheads or whatever pun. the only way for him to keep us close is to let us feel what it's like to be apart from him. BUT HE JUST DOESN'T get it.

that's syith btw. i think he looks like elvis in that photo, hihi :) the hair omg! haha. had breakfast w him on saturday mrng, really early breakfast. had nasi lemak at the same place in ttdi jaya. went to 7-e coz syith wanted to get his cigs AND THEN i came across horlicks malties. LOL. it's been ageeeeees since i've seen/heard of those thingies. lol. used to eat 'em all the time when i was small haha. so i bought 'em. both the choc and original one. lol. the choc one tastes so gross now. so pahit. haven't tried the original one yet though. heee.

had a kenduri tahlil at nenek's hse yesterday afternoon and uncle azman's 60th birthday party afterwards. the theme was rat & election. lol. weird kan. all this coz he's born in the yr of the rat and it's election fever since it's around the corner. so we made posters and everything. we even had a ballot box and ballots so that the guests could vote for their fave candidate. the two parties competing were partikus (so lame which makes it funny LOL) and partikat. err. partikus campaigners were clad in purple while the partikat-ers wore green :) in the end partikus won w 29 votes, partikat lost w only 9 and there were 12 undi rosak haha. it was fun and i had a lot to eat. thank god for babydoll tops for covering up my jelly belly ;) so, photos!


me and eva, looking all busy :)


me and kakak. i like this photo :)


me and mama w the election posters. they're husband and wife, btw :)


kakak looking like a rat. smelly rat.


partikus campaigners, L-R me, nenek, uncle azman, nek noon, eva, mama, yaya, kakak.


partikat, L-R aunty pat, lin, aunty siti, uncle ali, papa.


eva w her ais kacang. i think this is a nice photo of her so that's why i put it up :)

 
unlce azman w his birthday cupcakes, after being announced as the winner of the election, hehe :)

saturday. woke up at 4 am thanks to baby sara's screaming. thank god she's too cute to slap. went to the gardens w mama, papa and kakak. did some shopping. some is an understatement. lol. am happy :) so anyway. went to nenek's hse to make and decorate some cupcakes for uncle azman's birthday tmrw afternoon. syith decided to come home at the last min. got to see him for 2 mins and that was it. he came by w flowers. 3 dozen roses to be exact. how can i not love him? but. being the bitch that i sometimes am. we had a tiny fight shortly after. and made up again, some time after.

happy 4 months mohamad syith you know i love you <3
 


thank you bumblebee :)

i've finished my drawing project, WHOOOOPAY! :D went to sect 2 to get in binded but the person told me that it's too thick and he couldn't do anything abt it coz my paper already had holes in it :( damn. so i had to result to the next best thing. doesn't look as nice as i hoped it'd look. and ms yvonne said not to use that method of binding coz it's sort of the "easy way out". oh well in my case it's the "only way out" i swear. yaya came over just now and we discussed uncle azman's 60th birthday party. i can't wait! it's been a while since i've seen the whole family all at once, hehe. and syith won't be coming home again next week so i hv to keep myself busy, right? :) have been watching ANTM cycle 10 on youtube and i'm so loving dominique and anya :) will be going to bangsar w mama and yaya tmrw to look for party stuff :)

election's coming up pretty soon! and lately all papa's been talking abt at the dinner table is this and that abt the election. for e.g, last night. he was rambling abt god knows who (i don't make it a point to keep up w such news, heee) and pak lah doing this and that and blablabla. and he blasted the volume to the maximum so that he could hear the news all the way outside at the dining table. haih stress! and he even ajak me pergi shah alam to see if the flags and posters and banners were up yet. lol. excited old man. oh well. once every 5 years. or in this case, 4.

and this is what i've been busy w, apart from my drawing project.
room make over :)


a girl's gotta have her my little ponies doesn't she :)


couch that i SORT OF regret getting, since i hardly use it anyway.


a reason to sleep in during the weekends, lol.


my pin-up board's still empty, lol.



as clean as it'll ever get. let's just hope it stays that way :)

last night was the first time i drove, a lot. picked up farhana at her hse in sect 9 and we headed to mira's hse next, picked up mira & qila. went to uitm in sect 7 coz farhana had to get some stuff from her room there. drove back to bkt jelutong afterwards. hihi. didn't crash into anything and nothing crashed into me, alhamdulillah. lol :) syith dropped by the hse at 11 something. talked to him for a while. last night felt extra special for some reason. i'm glad he dropped by :) was really good to see him. thank you syith i love you :)

ate, washed up and the gossip fest began. found out so many new things. haha, shocking! was good to hang out w farhana, qila and mira. it's been so long since the 4 of us had a sleepover and talked abt nonsense and the way we were back then, which, come to think of it, wasn't so long ago. then qila stumbled upon the book. the book that had most of our photos, doodles and things like that. it was so sad and happy at the same time, going through the book. flashbacks of memories flooded our minds and we were laughing our heads off, constantly thinking things like, "what the hell were thinking" and "omggg ingat cantik sgt lah tu" etc etc etc :) lol. yes we did really stupid stuff back then and it's so funny when we think of it now. haven't been updating the book. somehow the book has its moments. it's like, during one period of time we'll be so psyched abt the book and fill every inch of it w every little detail of our lives and the next second we just sit back and keep the memories close to our hearts and minds instead of jotting them down. but the book really made me miss my friends super much. those whom i haven't seen in ages, those whom are no longer friends w me, those whom just drifted apart and those whom i constantly remember but hardly ever see. i miss school. i miss sitting beside farhana in class. i miss skipping class w farhana, afik, abu, alep, mel and edzmir. i miss sneaking out of class, crawling through the back door to go to the canteen to buy donuts and juice. i miss doing last minute homework in the dewan during assembly. i miss panicking when tak sempat siap. i miss getting my name called during perhimpunan for making noise and talking too much. i miss lining up and always being infront coz i'm short. i miss getting mad at the prefects that write down our names for not cutting our nails and having dirty shoes. i miss sleeping at the back of the class w farhana and the boys during addmath. i miss making fun of puan kashnani during math. i miss puan rosliyah constantly nagging me to clip my fringe aside and tie my hair properly. i miss volunteering to read aloud during english. i miss having recess at our table w the girls. i miss mintak tolong the tall kids belikan nasi w ayam at the canteen. i miss eating ice cream after every meal. i miss going to the toilet in one big group. i miss being the outcast w farhana in class. i miss hari sukan. i miss rumah merah. i miss making a fuss abt budak kawad and uniform and being competetive w the other rumah sukans. i miss winning perbarisan rumah sukan over and over and over again. i miss waiting at the pondok pak guard and walking to the dataran sinar w the girls. i miss ppl talking abt us when we walk past. i miss all the school dramas and gossips. i miss faking tummy aches to cut class and go home early. i miss buying milo ais and keropok lekor while waiting for mama to pick me up from school. i miss everything abt school. except the homework and exams. i miss being able to see my friends 5 days a week, sometimes more :(

my life has changed so much and sometimes it's hard to just realise that and be content. but i am. i love the way things are now. they could be better, but even if they aren't, i'm ok with that. i like the way i am now. but i don't like feeling safe. when i feel safe, i become sluggish. i'll be too content and i won't try harder. i hv great friends. the long gaps that we don't see each other are as if it's on pause. and once we meet up, things resume like the way the were. no awkward silence. no weird uncomfortable feelings. which is nice :) and i hv a great boyfriend. who has taught me things abt myself i didn't know i was capable of. he's not always there but it's okay coz i hv to learn to be independent and grow on my own. i need my learning and living space as well. but there are times when i'm needy and he's always swell abt it so it's just awesome and i love him more than a bucket of monkeys :) and my family's always great too. they make me mad sometimes but i know i do the same to them as well. but mama and papa are always so forgiving and understanding and they're just cool like that :) and kakak's just fabulous. how many big sisters would actually layan their kid sister w so much patience? :)

so i've sent qila to mmz this mrng and paan picked her up from there. went for lunch w mira and farhana and dropped mira off at syuk's hse and farhana waited for a cab to kl central. she's going to genting w hap :) hehe.

probably going out w syith later. i'm supposed to do my homework but so far all i've managed to do is cut out film strips. okay i exaggerated. i've only cut a film strip. yes, one. should get back to work now ;)

i baked the cake that mama wanted me to bake so badly. and it turned out ugly and bumpy and ugly. so she just left it in the oven and didn't even bother to serve it to her guest. THANK YOU mama, so much. and i woke up early for that. so while i was baking i asked syith if he wanted a cake, he said no coz he doesn't really like cake anyway, so okay i wasn't offended HEHE. decided to make a valentine's cum cny cake and bring it to college on monday but it got messy during the decorating process so i declared today as yasin my fat cat's birthday and made a birthday cake for him instead :) but papa and kakak won't be home tonight so we can't celebrate, heh.

went to ikea w kakak coz she wanted to get new curtains. ended up getting a new rug, plant and photo frames for herself as well. i bought another pair of curtains and boxes, a cute mirror and another spotted alligator. this one's for syith :)

having dinner w the girls tonight. i miss them so much :( but i feel bad for leaving mama at home alone. but then she was mean and didn't eat my cake so hmp :( besides, qila and hanila are coming back tonight so we might hv a sleepover or something w mira, farhana and ira as well. 

i was planning on starting on my drawing project tonight but i sort of hv other plans so i've put my project on hold again :| okay i'll start tmrw. i promise!

got my hair cut yesterday mrng :) it's short but not as short as most of you already think it is. sorry :) hihi. got it coloured as well, to even it out again coz my hair colour was like rojak before this and ew tak suka. kakak joined me halfway and decided to pamper herself as well, haha. later on she asked me to be her valentine which was so sweet so i said yes and asked her to be mine as well since syith's in perak :) we went home for a while to get some stuff before going out for lunch. mama cubit me coz i didn't wish her happy valentine's but then i said er i'm not really celebrating it and i didn't wish anyone pun. she didn't look convinced though, heh. went to telawi and had lunch w kakak at la bodega :) went to nenek's hse afterwards to visit nenek, sara and yaya. gave nenek some kangkung from our backyard which she just loves and pesan suruh bawa everytime we're heading there, hehe. and some chocs too. she was happy :) she forgot it was even valentine's day coz usually my cousin joey will take her and nek noon out for lunch on v day. but he's in bermuda now so yeah :( me and kakak decided to be her valentine's dates instead. sara was rolling around infront of the tele like always, being her usual bulat self haha. gemok gila, too much! she had a bath afterwards and wore her striped baby zara pants. so ketat dah, my nenek said mcm sarung cempedak hahaha. but yaya said that they're actually tights, and they're supposed to fit like that in sara's defence. hehe :) my cousin lin ( sara's mommy ) thinks that she's going to be a lefty coz she's been using more of her left hand. i dunno, she's only 4 months old, so yeah. yaya made cupcakes and gave us some to bring home. had dinner at home w the family and watched tv afterwards.

AMAZING RACE ASIA II, OH MY GOD! alishia if you haven't watched it yet i suggest you stop reading now. STUPID STUPID STUPID ROVILSON OMG I FEEL LIKE SMACKING HIM AND I BET MARC WOULD GLADLY JOIN ME. CRAZY. THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE RACE THEY WERE LIKE FIRST, SECOND, FIRST, SECOND THEN SUDDENLY THEY'RE LAST AT THE MOMENT THAT IT MATTERS THE MOST. EEE SO GERAM. I REALLY WANTED THEM TO WIN, SINCE THEY'RE REALLY GOOD AND SMART AND THEY DON'T MAKE A FUSS ABT THINGS AND JUST DO IT. THEY REALLY DESERVED TO WIN LAH JUDGING ON THEIR PERFORMANCE THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE RACE. TAPI TAPI TAPI. THEY DIDN'T :( SO YEAH BOO HOO.

syith's coming home today, whoooooopay! but he's home for a relative's wedding so i'm not gonna kacau him and ask him to take me out and all that :) coz he's not home for me this time, heh. sedih nya dengar. but it's okay i think i can handle that :)

okay gonna bake a cake for mama now, byeee!

went to ikea w mama yesterday mrng and got lotsa stuff for my room. new curtains for my bed, boxes and baskets, things like that. had sushi for lunch and went to nenek's hse w kakak after that. visited baby sara, she's as healthy and round as ever. 100x cuter than the last time i saw her though :) had to layan her coz she refused to take a nap eventhoug her eyes were all kuyu, lol. i gave her this tiny alligator, it has red spots, chicken pox i reckon or maybe measles hihi. oh and she knows how to roll over onto her tummy now. and she knows how to grip too :)

went to OU afterwads to shopshopshop. bought lotsa new tops for myself and a pair of pants meant to be pyjama pants but i reckon they're too cute so i'll just have to wear them out at least once :)

changed the curtains on my bed and re-arranged a few things in my room. it looks so different now, it also has a different feel to it too. eventhough i don't think i changed anything that much. but it feels nice :) and my room's darker now, coz my old curtains were white and the new ones are dark dark purple and dark dark pink :) my bathroom's all tidy too. i categorised my things accordingly and put them into baskets and boxes and it all just looks so neat now, yay!

i haven't touched my drawing project. yes, the one that has to be at least 70% complete by monday. i'm so lazy. hols just don't deserve to be called hols if there's work due the day college resumes. hm :( i've been so sick but i just refuse to go to the doc coz i'm just lazy like that and mama hasn't been pestering me so i guess i'm not that sick anyway coz if i really was then it'd show and mama and papa would know. i've been feeling really lethargic lately and i hv no idea what the cause of it is. i did nothing the whole day. i woke up around noon, went down and looked for food. found nothing, switched on the tele and watched cartoons. called mc d after abt 10 mins and switched to a movie on hallmark instead. ate half my burger infront of the tele and threw out the other half, guess i wasn't that hungry after all. finished my fries though. watched more tv, big momma's hse 2 for the gazillionth time. watched this movie called flirting which was sort of weird and pointless, switched to watch old episodes of the oc instead. basically sat on the couch for a good 6 hours before i finally decided it was time for a bath.

i miss syith so much :( he's busy w his work and stuff. and when he's not, he's either too tired or doing something else which does not include texting me. my cousins lin and eva were talking abt long distance relationships in the car the other day. lin suddenly turned to me and asked how's syith & everything. i answered and she giggled and said "hard isn't it, being in an LDR. kan sha?" coz she and zaki were in an LDR for awhile before they eventually got married. hmm. and i just laughed it off. then eva had to get all mean and cynical, saying that perak isn't that far so me & syith's relationship isn't so long distance after all. what the hell. just coz yr boyf's all the way in london doing god knows what! ee. give me some credit lah. this is my first ever long distance relationship after all, even if it's not far enough to be considered as an LDR. who are you to judge. what, there's this specific kilometer count that has to be reached to qualify as an LDR is it. nonsense, nvr heard of it. and yes he comes home almost every weekend. but that doesn't mean i can't miss him on sunday, monday, tuesday, wednesday, and thursday, right? :( 

aaaaaaaaand i'm finally gonna get my hair cut tmrw! :D i dunno how short it's gonna be but i hope it turns out alright, hihi. syith wants me to cut it short, like pixie kind of really short but no i'd never go through that again. waiting for my hair to grow takes ages!

i was going on & on abt how hot the vocalist of the wallflowers is when syith told me that he's bob dylan's son. lol. no wonder he's tdf kind of hot :)

tanjong jara was great. fabulous, the beach and everything. i've loads of photos but am lazy to upload 'em coz i just don't know how to, haha. ate too much and now i'm fucking fat and ugly. bleargh. i got sick one the 3rd day there. i couldn't sleep well. i had to wake up SUPER early everyday. but it was a good vacation. sort of.

syith syith syith i miss him. met up w him for a tiny while as soon as i got back from the airport and right before he had to leave for perak. didn't get him anything from terengganu, seriously there was nothing that i could get him anyway. batik shorts? ew i don't think so. got him his fave chocs at the airport instead. makan banyak banyak please sampai gemuk thank you :)

went to telawi w kakak, lin and eva afterwards and shopped. went to datin wong's hse that night and ate a lot again. got ang paus :)
whale. HAHA lame.

i can't stand to stay in my own room anymore. mess on the right left centre top bottom everywhere lah basically. started off by cleaning up my bathroom. washed my make ups coz the liquid eye liner spilt and smudged onto everything in the make up bag. re-arranged my toiletries, hair stuff, perfumes and shit. i need more space. was almost done when i suddenly got bored and decided to start on my room. was abt to clear up my couch when i decided to make a list of things to buy instead. wanted to go to ikea and abandon my spring cleaning plans for the day but mama already had plans of her own and they did not include taking me to ikea. she promised to take me tmrw instead :) and now i'm blogging. obviously i've given up on cleaning up my room. and now it looks even worse than it did before. what the chicken.

papa was complaining abt how his money just poofs into thin air and how we shop too much and we should start saving and things like that. and he told me i need to earn my money. excuse me, how? i hv class monday - friday. there's no such thing as working on the weekends only. and even if there was such a thing, who whould gv up their weekend for work? that's nap time and tv time and syith time. he never means it though, the whole earn yr money thing. he knows it's impossible. the only way i hv access to money is through him. he's my dad, he's supposed to support me financially. at least until i hv a job. or get married :) then suddenly he talks abt buying land by the beach to build a beach hse. er right. what happened to the whole spend less & save more plan? hihi. i'm stoked abt it though.

i'm still demam. contemplating on whether i should go to the doc or not. yeap coz i'm lazy like that.

hihi. i want to write abt things that hv become so over rated but i've got readers that are of that mould and part of the band wagon so i guess i won't coz i don't write to offend people.
HAHA.

arif. says: can i just say something.?
zurisha says: yup
arif. says: u look soo lady like la now.
zurisha says: dulu i man like keee
arif. says: i guess everyone's growing up.
arif. says: no la.
arif. says: u used to be soo..kiddy like
zurisha says: HAHA oh okay lol
zurisha says: thanks?
arif. says: it's a compliment.
zurisha says: thanks!

oh well awep i guess all of us do hv to grow up, eventually :)


me and kakak in sesame street world :)

was supposed to meet up w the girls yesterday afternoon but i was asleep when farhana texted :( heh i miss them. went out w syith around 6, he wanted to go to pyramid but by the time we got there we felt like going to OU instead lol. so anyway otw, there were these kids walking on the sidewalk of the highway infront of pyramid and one of the boys was dribbling a ball then all of a sudden the ball bounces on to the middle of the street and his immediate reaction was to go after it. EEE he was right infront of our car. halfway there he snapped out of it and hesitated, and thank god syith has quick reflexes HEHE lol. i thought things like that only happened in the movies! or on tv, like some advert for road safety and things like that, heh. scaryy.

went to OU (yes, agaiiin) with syith and watched 'cuci' lol. was okay lah. hans isaac is so. grr :) lol. i hate i hate i HATE people who stare shamelessly at other people for no reason at all. wthell. aaand syith's annoyance towards THOSE sort of kids is starting to rub off on to me as well, heh. aaand it's so annoying how he's always thinking of the same thing when we see something um, funny looking or just plain weird. gila tak boleh cover, hehhh. and we saw this chinese kid flipping over turtles so that they were on their shells, with their tiny feet waving around in the air, looking all hopeless and miserable and mcm kesian gila but that kid just kept laughing as if it was bloody amusing and funny. i felt like kicking the kid but syith wanted to make him wear those big bulky standard two backpacks with like 10 textbooks inside and push him onto his back and see if he could get up. what the chicken, stupid kid. okaaay. wanted to hv dinner at the hainan chicken rice shop in uptown but it was closed, heh of course. so settled for the chicken rice at that hawker place in uptown instead. was super yummmmayh. hands down, best chicken rice i've tasted in a while. the kerabu mango was a bit diff too, usually people use the mango muda to make it but this shop used the ripe mangoes, like the already yellowish orangish type, lol. sedap gila but what the chicken! pedas gilaa.

was suppppposed to hv our "bobots" reunion tonight but tak jadi coz semua SENYAP JE. malas lah nak buat plans lain kali. it's so annoying when they get me all hyped up and then they're the ones who end up slacking off and diam je mcm bongok. ee. and how often do all of us hv hols during the same time kaaan. what the chicken. next time i'm just gonna leave the planning and anticipating up to you guys lah. lepas tu nak merengek cakap rindu lah apa semua. tp bila org nak jumpa jadi malas malas pulak. eeeee.

anyway going off to terengganu w the family tmrw. i don't want to goooooooooo. i mean i want to lah. but i want to bring along syith and farhana and mira and qila and yusra and hanila and ira aaaaaaaand semua lah with me. i can't wait to hit the beach though. if i had my way i'd be texting syith non stop but he'd never tolerate that and that's a bit toooo needy, even for me LOL. i'm gonna miss him :( at least i'll hv that smelly t shirt of his. heee. busuk gila i swear he'll never want it back hohoho :)

didn't do much yesterday. lazed around at home and watched old episodes of the oc. kakak had to literally drag me out of the house and force me to telawi with her. she wanted to get her brows threaded and i needed to so badly but i was so lethargic GILA MALAS type. so went anyway. had a bite to eat at alexis and saw eka and her friends. wanted to talk talk but i was having a bad day so yeah :/ went home after that and was restless. watched tv w mama and then got a text from syith. ajak pg makan but it was already 6 pm by then and i had dinner plans w kakak and the rest. picked him up anyway and went to SR to tapau something for him to eat. i'm telling you that boy doesn't eat until he really has to. makan banyak sikit, please? awkward silence and then we went home. went to farah and oyan's hse around 7.30 and waited for eva. headed to uptown after that for some satay by adam's request since he "can't get satay in melbourne" lol. there're a lottt of things you can't get in melbs ok adam, why satay? :S i'm not a big fan of satay but what the heck. went to guardian w eva for a while to get cough meds for syith, but i didn't hv a prescription and the so called pharmacy's only open until 5.30 pm so got the next best thing recommended by the salesgirl. heh. went home and dropped by syith's hse for a tiny while. i love making up :)

ever wonder why brandon boyd's the only one who takes off his shirt before jumping off the bridge and into the water in the v/c for wish you were here? why he's the only half naked one in drive and stellar? hmmm makes you think doesn't it :) man just doesn't take a fancy to wearing shirts and don't get me wrong i'm not complaining 0:)
somehow listening to incubus makes me miss syith a little less. or is it a little more? hmm. i can't wait for the weekend.

had lunch w mama and papa, did some grocery shopping afterwards. wanted to get my eyebrows threaded buttt. it's that time of the month so i guess i'll hv to deal w my messy eyebrows for at least another day or two.

and someone pls tell me exactly what is wrong IF everyone COULD actually own a stam by marc jacobs or a chanel coco cabas or 2.55 or even an hermes birkin bag? i don't see how extreme price slashing would EVER affect you so save us the drama and stop yr whining. what? yr scared that EVERYONE will outshine you if they're able to get their tom, dick and harry hands on all that jazz? ah yes. yr purchases make you. no wonder yr being all pissy and having a fit abt these new prices. tsk tsk, tut tut.

anyway,
6 days to go! :)