kak wati called me down yesterday afternoon and told me that some old man was downstairs, with a chicken. a real, live chicken. ok, rooster to be exact. anyway. i couldn't really recognise the guy, but he seemed v familiar. lol. so anyway. he started going on abt how the rooster was 'nakal' and 'ganas' and got into a fight w another chicken and blinded one eye. er. ok still no clue why he gave the chicken anyway. he tied it to a tree in the courtyard and asked what time papa will be home. ok borderline weird. i was like whoooo is this guy why is he so familiar. so anyway when he left, i called mama and asked her if she or papa was expecting a chicken to be delivered. they were as clueless as i was. so i told kak wati to lock the side gate, just incase. after much discussion and thought w kak wati, she finally mumbled something abt security and that's when it hit me. that old man was our security guard that comes every night. no wonder i couldn't recognise him in broad daylight :S haha. so kak wati decided to name the rooster jeffrey. lol.

went out w syith around 2.30 and decided to go to the curve. went to the sony centre first, to check out cameras :) hee. i already know which one i'm gonna get. after that had sushi for late lunch and syith was happy to see the sushi-monster side of me as i shamelessly took plate after plate after plate off the conveyor belt and ate like i haven't done so in 4 months. heee. he said he likes to see me eating like that. i guess i don't really hold back when it comes to eating sushi coz it's healthy. LOL. or so i like to think. well compared to the other junk i eat every other day. checked out movie listings but there wasn't much choice so we went to dome for drinks. found out that syith knows sooo byk of kakak's new acquaintances, haha. and all these new found connections started popping up, heh. went to OU afterwards and watched 'the deaths of ian stone' which was ok lah. went to dome again coz syith wanted another espreski :S amazes me howww &  whyyy he's not fat yet. went to uptown after that to eat chicken rice :D yes the one that's so sedap tu. but i didn't finish. coz i was still full from all the sushi, lol. went home and watched the election results w mama and papa and kakak until 1 something then went to bed.

woke up at noon and went downstairs to read the newspaper. so depressing :( but it's ok lah i guess. i hope so. insyaAllah. watched tv until 2 then bathed and went to the curve w mama and papa. got my new camera :) the sony cybershot t70 in pink. it's so pretty! lol.

wanted to go out w syith again tonight but papa tak bagi. SO ANNOYING. he said i've been going out too much. what the chicken. i only go out on the weekends coz that's the only time syith's around and it's not like syith comes back EVERY weekend pun. EEE. and it's not like i've ever gone past my curfew pun. and i never sneak out. and i don't do anything bad. i don't misbehave. ok maybe a bit but not that much. he just won't let me and kakak GROW UP and it's so annoying and it's making me even more tak sabar nak MOVE OUT. he thinks that by babying us he's gonna keep us close to him forever. he doesn't even hv recent photos of me and kakak in his office, instead he has photos of us when we were SMALL KIDS, like 3-5 y/o kids. and whenever we hv open hses or whatever all his collegues will be like, OH DAH BESAR RUPANYA, ingatkan kecil lagi. YEAH, you wish lah pa. it's not like i don't like spending time w my family or whatever but i don't ever make a big deal if he backs out of family plans coz of golf or whatever. equality lah. i hv a life of my own too. i'm 19 and he still treats me like i'm fucking 4 y/o. and mama keeps complaining that i haven't started driving on a regular basis yet, but everytime i actually WANT to drive, papa will start saying things like, KENA KE, tak payah lah, etc and he'll keep on making excuses on why i shouldn't drive. for e/g : dah lambat (padahal it's only what, 8pm?) and then he'll say it's dark (duh that's why cars hv lights!) and then he'll use the age-old excuse of oh it's not you i don't trust, it's the other drivers on the road. EEE. how lah to grow up and be independent like this? the truth is the more he does this the more i feel like breaking away. it's just so annoying. orang lain pun ada anak perempuan jugak. takde pun paranoid mcm dia. and they don't turn out to be whores or drug dealers or crackheads or whatever pun. the only way for him to keep us close is to let us feel what it's like to be apart from him. BUT HE JUST DOESN'T get it.

saturday. woke up at 4 am thanks to baby sara's screaming. thank god she's too cute to slap. went to the gardens w mama, papa and kakak. did some shopping. some is an understatement. lol. am happy :) so anyway. went to nenek's hse to make and decorate some cupcakes for uncle azman's birthday tmrw afternoon. syith decided to come home at the last min. got to see him for 2 mins and that was it. he came by w flowers. 3 dozen roses to be exact. how can i not love him? but. being the bitch that i sometimes am. we had a tiny fight shortly after. and made up again, some time after.

happy 4 months mohamad syith you know i love you <3
 


thank you bumblebee :)

"Why do you build me up, Buttercup, baby
Just to let me down and mess me around
And then worst of all you never call, baby
When you say you will, but I love you still
I need you more than anyone darling
You know that I have from the start
So build me up, Buttercup, don't break my heart."

- The Foundations ; Build Me Up Buttercup.

today is officially the worst day of my life w syith :(
i really really hope things get better. and the both of us just GROW UP.

alishia stayed over at my hse on wednesday and thursday night, we had to start on and finish up our final artwork for our window display :) slept early on wed night and didn't get much work done haha, so we pulled an all nighter on thurs night, lol. submitted it on fri morning and went home at around 12, was so sleeeeepy. syith called while i was asleep and ajak keluar. wanted to sleeeep but then i woke up anyway and we went to OU :) went to delicious and bumped into sarah and ridzwan, lol. haven't seen her in a while, him too. had dinner at monte's w mama, papa and kakak that night. escargot i've missed you so :) hihi. slept as soon as i got home.

followed syith and his friends to the archifest in UiTM shah alam on saturday. err, wasn't much lah. i expected it to be jam packed w people and stuff on display. but it was okay lah, maybe the heat got to me and didn't help w my mood. saw some great photos and paintings on display though. had a big fight w syith afterwards but i won't get into the details. skipskipskip. we patched things up but i was still a bit upset. went to darus later that night and met up w hanila, ijat, mira and ira. catched up and made plans for the "reunion" hehe i can't wait!

celebrated sean's birthday at tgif on friday. we ate so much i'm bloated right up until now haha. and it just hit me that sean's the only boy among us, like all the time. lol. anyyyway. went out w syith after class. present hunting! went to the curve first to look for his jersey but dah habis so we headed to OU instead. had teppanyaki for dinner then went to nike to see if they had the jersey. they had oneee last piece but it was XL so yeah tak beli. he wanted it so badly but tak dapat, heh so kesian. ended up getting him a wallet from quiksilver. he wanted the white one and i was likee uhhh it'll get dirty blablabla but yeah i hv to admit it's really nice so ended up getting it anyway lol. got 6 tickets for the quik rev tour thingy sekali. met up w hanila at the a&w in PJ afterwards and bumped into meme. it's been sooooooo long. he's fat now hahaha. not that fat. just a bit plump haha. made plans to meet up during CNY, like the whole bunch of us. hopefully it'll turn out okay coz i miss them heaps! spent the night at my friend's hse.

went to pyramid w syith just now. wanted to hv brunch at dome but when we got there it wasn't dome anymore and it was friendster instead haha so we settled for that. we got into a little fight and i teared. what the hell. i don't know why it's so easy for me to cry infront of him, especially lately. he's my kryptonite? LOL. so anyway. loads of kids passed by while we were eating. all of them looked stereotypical and i just knew they'd be heading to the quik thingy. haha. fine i wanted to go too but syith wasn't up for it so yeah i gave away my tickets.

am gonna bake cupcakes now and gv 'em to syith whether he wants 'em or not :)

 went shopping w mama on friday during lunch and bought a few things from forever21. i love impromptu shopping trips w mama coz i always end up getting more than i hope for :)

went home, slept and did nothing much, watched tv, watched some more tv. got a text from sayang saying that he won't be coming home this weekend. i was okay, since i wasn't expecting it anyway, he told me he might not come home this week, last week. had dinner, did some work and got another text from sayang. he was back :) hihi.

went out w sayang the next day around noon, although he told me we'd hv breakfast at 9.30 haha he over slept, why am i not surprised? :P went to OU, had lunch and sayang bought a few things for his mom, it was her birthday yesterday. happy birthday aunty :) hehe. went to taman mayang afterwards to buy some stuff for college and sayang bought a few sketchbooks and stuff too. went to tesco and giant after that to look for a plain white t for sayang to use as his sample. he has to design some t shirts for his course or something like that i don't really remember hehe. he sent me home and borrowed my car to go back to OU to celebrate his mom's birthday w the rest of the family. me, mama, kakak and kak wati went to aunty li's hse for dinner that night. first family gathering in her new apartment :) the food was superb as always, i wouldn't hv expected anything less. uncle sverre made meatballs and they were HUGE, and yummayh.

went home and sayang came over for awhile to return my car but mama didn't want me to drive back home alone after sending him so she suggested that i get my car in the mrng instead. gave sayang some calamine lotion coz he's been getting these awful awful bug bites and they look terrible and itchy and scratchy okay same thing haha. what lah sayang. i told you not to let the bed bugs bite :(

had a small argument w him later that night. it was good for the both of us i guess. it wasn't pretty at first but things got better, we both learnt that we should just get arguments over with instead of just stopping out of fear of what'll happen if we continue. problems never get resolved if that's the case and these things will just keep on occuring so it's better to just deal w it there and then and not let it drag on. so i got a couple of things off my chest and so did he, although he's way better at controlling his anger than i am and that made him a bit more sensible than myself. he kept me grounded throughout all my rantings so i guess he's worth it. he's so worth it.

woke up early this mrng and had breakfast w sayang in ttdi. dropped by his hse for awhile to get his stuff and we headed to my hse. hung around for awhile and then we went to hanila's hse since he's going back to perak w her and aqilah. so i drove back from hanila's hse, alone. haha. was okay lah, not that many cars on the road. it was sunday, no one stays at home on sunday if they live in a place like shah alam. so he's back in perak :(

sunday, 6.30 am. syg sent me a text message asking if i could go out at that very moment. he wanted to watch the sunrise together :) reminded me to bring along the slr as well. rushed out of bed, brushed my teeth grabbed my stuff. heee, no i didn't brush my hair or wash my face. lol i didn't bathe either. heee. oh well. went out in my pyjamas and syg was already waiting at my front gate. drove to the road side that overlooked the main roads leading to bkt jelutong ( we can even see genting from there, hehe ). it was quite funny, being there w him at such an early time of day, hehe. the cars that drove past slowed down when they got closer to us, lol. syg took some pictures of the view and attempted to get a photo of me w/o my make up on, lol. went to mc donalds to get some breakfast and headed back home. he's been surprising me w all these spur-the-moment and spontaneous last minute plans lately and it's making me a v happy girl :)

the excitement and happiness was short lived however :( we had an argument later that day and right up until now we're still not that okay yet. i hate that i can't control my anger and he doesn't seem to think that the things i get mad abt are actually worth all the trouble of getting mad in the first place. compromise ; a word both me and him should get acquainted with. syg gave me this and although he doesn't believe it but it is sort of true ( and neither would i, based on regular circumstances... ) nonetheless, there IS some truth to it :

Love Compatibility of Aries with Aquarius

Aries and Aquarius get along famously right from the get-go - you both love new beginnings, the excitement of starting over and enthusiastically sharing your dreams with each other. You need your independence and your partner needs emotional detachment. This means you'll always have the freedom and space you need with each other. Your Aquarius can be a bit of a know-it-all, though, and with your quick temper, a good-natured argument can quickly turn into a full-out brawl. On the bright side, this mentally stimulating relationship will rarely have any dull moments.

i'm the aries baby by the way, and he's an aquarius. YES i hv a quick temper and YES he always needs his emotional detachment. and that independence part is quite true too, that's where my ego comes into the picture. and yes syg you are a bit of a know-it-all ( by that i'm saying yr smart syg, heee ) okay. so yes. we'll work things out. insyaAllah ;)
 

 had my eng finals just now and i guess it went pretty well but everytime i think i did well i always end up getting crap results so yeah my hopes aren't that high this time around. went home and watched john tucker for a while and then went out w sayang :) went to get more acrylics and dropped by at mc d to grab some lunch. sent sayang home and when i got home i found my online purchases propped ever so perfectly on my bed. weee mmhaha :) resisted the temptation to tear open the parcel and unwrapped it patiently :) they fit so perfectly lol thank god! baby sara and lin went back to kl today :( so it's just yaya and me tonight, since kakak's going to live&loud and will probably be home late so yeah. had anotherr argument w sayang today, again it's over something so stupid but i just had to make a big deal out of it. but it's not that stupid lah kot. i mean if he can - for others then why can't he - for me, right? hmp :( so it's not entirely my mengadaness's fault. but theeen i sort of pushed my luck a bit lah kot towards the end when he gave in and decided to - anyway but then i just haddd to let little ms ego get into the way of things and well yeah. tmrw's the 29th by the way :) and i'll be super busy tmrw damn it :( hv to go to college for archiving eventhough i sooo don't want to and i'd rather stay at home and maybe spend some time w syg since it's our first month and everything but yeah stupid end-of-semester work grr :(

am currently talking to alishia via MSN. THANK GOD she thinks something was wrong w the article that we had to summarize for our eng test just now. i thought i was the only one who got confused haha. the title and the article didn't match at all like wtf lah dah lah tak study, lagi nak confuse me by giving the wrong title for the wrong essay or vice versa ee.

woke up early today and went to buy fruits in tmn tun w yaya. dropped by win's art in tmn mayang to get my acrylics and brushes. went home and watched tv when i really SHOULD HV been doing my final artwork (FA). eee. so so easily distracted. got a text from afik earlier in the day saying it's been awhile since the last time we hung out and he wanted to catch up w me and syg so decided to meet up. thought it'd be a good oppurtunity for syg to meet my friends pula, haha. so i asked mira fanna ira to join as well. went to DE and it was packed as usual. err so yeah. i guess afik was right when he said that it'll be hard for me and him and syg to actually talk and catch up once i'm w fanna mira ira haha. i can't help it, we need our updates too! heee. so yeah, talked to afik a bit but then mcm ala so kesian coz he's the one who suggested that we hang out & everything and i ended up blabbing non stop w the girls. so it's a good thing that my bf and bff get along so well :) makes things a whole lot easier for me. after a while syg and afik left us girls to hang out w their other guy friends. went home and started to work on my FA while onlining heee. me and syg got into our hugest fight so far but then it was just a HUGE misunderstanding hahaha he thought i was talking abt THAT when i was actually talking abt THIS. adoyy. so we're back to normal, haha. i've got my eng finals tmrw and i'm beyond dead. i actually went through the revision papers that ms catherine gave us and realised that i hv no idea what the whole thing is abt anyway. summarising i can handle, but paraphrasing? it's easy but i over-think things when it comes to paraphrasing and end up screwing up the whole thing. hmmm. had to google 'paraphrasing' coz i couldn't find my notes, shit lah. i'm such a scatttttterbrain. night.