iloveyouuu ducky! :)
s'been awhile since we've had photos together, hee. idc if i look like a retard :|





went to college today coz the external examiner would be there. the whole class had to come but only 12 were selected for the interview. ms karen was reading along a list of names and i thought she was done and was relieved that she didn't mention my student number when all of a sudden she says the last person to make it through is the last person on the name list :| damn. had to stay until 12 something then syith picked me up and we sent alishia, julian, shuyi and sean to the hse of 9, hehe. apparently somebody seems to think syith's nose is hot and someone likes his big BIG eyes? hahaha. so funny comel lah :) after that i wanted to eat but he already ate so i didn't feel like eating anymore, heh. he came over after that and went through all the pictures in my laptop :| haha so mengada takde kerja. couldn't tahan lapar sgt so we went to kfc :D and now i'm waiting for eza to pick me up to go to the class barbecue :) yay more fooooood! syith's going back to perak tmrw for his last few exams and i'll be getting my results tmrw and after that we're heading straight to sunway lagoon yaaaaaaaay :D ok i think i should bathe before eza comes, hee. bye.

went to aunty li's apartment coz lin wanted to take baby sara for a swim. she wore the bikini that me and kakak gave her, the baby gap zebra print bikini. so comel! :) oh and she peed on kakak in the shower, bahahahahaha.


aaaah so annoying! her cheeks, GRRRRR.

went out on saturday w syith. he's been coming home alot since there've been gaps between his papers and by the 11th he'll be on hols as well :) hee. had ikan pariii for lunch at the usual place lah. went to get some art materials for my presentation board after that. theeen. syith convinced me that it was okayy to go and watch ironman instead of work on my board like i planned to. hmmm :D hehe. can't say i regret it coz the movie was sooooooo good! way better than i expected! hehehe and robert downey jr is soooo hot. eventhough he's old. okay no lah, his character, tony stark is HOTTT. and there're so many movies coming out soon that i can't wait to see like wanted coz jolie's in it so that's most def a must watch, and indiana jones, and that 3D movie quest to the middle of the earth or something like that lah, and prince caspiaaan. aiyaiyai i can't wait :D went home afterwards and syith came over that night to help me with my board. hee, right. anyway i didn't get much work done coz we ended up watching tv instead :| hehe.

sundaaay. finished up my presentation board by 10 something am then went out w syith to develope some photos. went to eat at uptown before that. then we went out again that night for dinner at OU then syith needed to get some notes from syukri so we dropped by his hse before heading back home. 

mondaaay. submitted my final artworks, sketchbooks, cds, portfolio and all that stuff lah. so relieved that i'm done w my foundation year omggg! :D on hols until the end of august YAY YAY YAY. external examiner's coming this wednesday and a few ppl are gonna be interviewed for dunno what lah. those who aren't chosen get to go home. i hope i don't get chosen bahaha :D theeen we're gonna hv a class barbecue at the hse of 9 which is where most of my classmates stay, hehe. and then we'll be getting our results on thursday! gilaa cepat okay. going to sunway lagoon after that w the rest of the class, heee i can't wait :D

finally passed up my final drawing project today :) was all hyped up for the amazing factor thingy today, haha it's a combo of amazing race and fear factor lah kiranya. anywayy we all wore black and so did everyone else lah kan, haha. so semangat ok, i wore my yoga pants and sashoe jersey and chucks and everythingg. sampai college and my team members said they wanted to forfeit coz alishia wasn't feeling well, julian got cold feet and sean tak ada mood coz his pc kena virus and all his stuff's gone haha so takde kaitan at all actually but yeah. i was bummed lahhh coz dah excited gilaa dah nak take part and everything just for laughs and since we'll be seperated after the hols :( so we ended up playing anyway, hehe! a total of 40 teams of 6 took part, lol. so during the first stage, 2 teams had to work together against another combined two teams. we were grouped w these boys from the engineering faculty so for once sean wasn't the only boy, haha.

the first game was kind of stupid and it wasn't exactly fool-proof. we had to go agaisnt our opponents individually, so like either one had to drink water or at least pretend to drink water and the other person had to guess if there's water in their opponents mouth or not. lol. and the person that wins gets a tomato, so at the end of the game, each group member that won and got a tomato had to grind the tomato using only their mouth and put all the juice into a cup, so eventually the group w the most juice kira menang lah for that game. lol.  so anyway, i got a tomato and so did alishia, and eza too. and a few of the engineering boys in our group. so we decided to cheat a little by drinking water and keeping it in our mouths and spit it out sekali after we've sucked the juice out of the tomato, lol. smart kan. so yeah anyway our cup was overflowing so the organisers had to come over w a bigger cup, lol.

the next game was gruesome! they put live worms YUCK and sand and red beans into a bucket and each group member had 15 seconds to find a red bean and put it onto a styrofoam plate. and like, if you accidentally got a bit of sand or a worm on the plate then you'll be disqualified, lol. our team got a slow start but we finally managed to get 1 red bean when the opposing team already had 3, lol. and i was the first to get it btw :D hihi. shuyi and eza got beans too, and so did some other engineering boys, lol. i think we got 8 or 9 lah in the end, hehe.

the next game involved chopsticks and banana pieces floating in this yucky looking water (it was that ugly ugly shade of green/brown, blearghh) so anywayy i don't really know how the game goes coz i didn't take part coz they only needed 6 players for each team, hehe. put we won that game in the end, we got more banana pieces than the opposing team :)

aaand then, each group was given a clue and we had to figure out a riddle, i can't really remember how it went but i know it involved logic, hehe. sooo alishia pushed her way through the crowd of big big smelly sweaty tall big smelly boys to tell the organisers her answer which was correct :D and so we proceeded to the next level, where we were given a glimpse of a photograph indicating the place where the next clue is. i recognised it as the ceiling of the elevators so we ran to the lifts and eza said she saw a clue in the lift near the art department and yess, there it was. we were told to proceed to level 5, level 3, level 1 and finally level 7. we were supposed to look at the clues pasted on the walls but unfortunately some stupid contestants ripped them off so that no one else could read them after they saw it. ee bodoh gila. sooo we ran back to the 3rd floor and bumped into one of the organisers and explained to her abt the missing clue thingy and she said we can just proceed to the pitstop and ask for the next clue, heehee. the rest of the game is just too hard to put into words lah so i won't, haha. let's just say we ran all over the place and got abt another 4/5 clues throughout the whole game. didn't think we got that far coz everyone else's clues weren't like ours and they seemed so far ahead, we lost hope dah. plus we didn't really do much though, haha. so anyway, at 5.20 everyone had to gather at the cafeteria and the organisers said that out of the 40 groups, they'll pick the top 3. it was getting late and sean, julian and i had to go home. so we left alishia and shuyi at the cafeteria since we had no expectations of making the top 3 anyway. and i was saying thank god they're only choosing the top 3 out of 40 coz if they chose like, the top 20 and our group doesn't make it to the top 20 then buat maluu je, so at least if they choose the top 3 only, we could always berangan and convince ourselves that we were number 4 and were thiiiiiis close to the top 3, haha. so me, eza, julian and sean left. 

shortly after that, shuyi sent a text saying that we got third place and we won RM 100 but we had to forfeit due to the lack of team members. SHIT. hahahahahahaha. omg i was so shocked! like seriously tak sangka langsung. wasn't expecting to make it to the top 20 pun, ini tiba tiba 3rd place. hahahahahaha. i felt like kicking myself! if we had waited just a little longer, lol. sooo after we forfeited they gave it to another group instead. haih :( but it's ok lah, at least we had fun. heh. guess we should never, never underestimate ourselves. we figured we'd never hv a chance of winning coz all these big arabs and tall ppl and physically fit ppl were taking part, so we scrawny short physically unfit ppl would never stand a chance against them. turns out our clues were so different from the others coz we were ahead of them, not lagging behind them. LOL. adoi i still feel like kicking myself lah.

but it wasn't that bad lah. at least we got to make friends w new ppl and alishiaaaaaa got to talk to MR A. hahaha. so geram. but takpe lah. and now they all know that i CAN run, when i want to. haha. and eza was so cute, fussing abt how i shouldn't run too fast  too much, and that i should slow down and she kept saying that it's raining and i should stay under the shade coz she just knows how weak i am. haha from experience. and i forgot to bring my inhaler so she takut i dapat asthma attack out of all the excitement and running around, lol.

ok this is a random post w a photo overload :)





































okay so maybe we take too many photos :|

happy 19th birthday, hanila! :)
love you woman!

anyway quick antm update before i hit the shops for some happy time w kakak :D

atalya slater
kimberly rydzewski
allison kuehn
amis jenkins
marvita washington
aimee wright
claire unabia
dominique reighard
whitney thompson
fatima siad
katarzyna dolinska
stacy ann fequiere
anya kop
lauren utter 

so anyway i can't believe that CLAIRE is out. although i don't like her that much, it's all coz of her attitude, she honestly takes awesome pictures so yeah another one of tyra's "i hv faith in you" moments when she decided to keep lauren a/k/a lurch from the adam's family instead of claire. sighh. sean's devastated, he was hoping for claire to go further on in the competition :( hee. fatima's picture was the best out of the bunch and i couldn't agree more. anya's was pretty good too. ok actually it was great! hehe. okay that's all. can't wait for next week's episodee :D


 

had our malaysian studies presentation today and lemme just say that it was fa-bu-lous! :D we were the last group to present, but also the best HAHA no i'm not joking lol. our topic was intergrasi perkahwinan and it was the only topic that wasn't on the provided list of topics by mr al, so it wasn't anything factual and by-the-book, which made it so much better and fun to present :) we even came up w a short sketch to portray how the general community reacts towards inter-racial marriages. our theme colour was red :) we decided to start w the short sketch before doing the actual presentation, and after we had finished w the sketch, mr al clapped his hands and was smiling and everything and he said "fabulous! 9 marks for all of you!" hihi, yes it's 9 out of 10 btw :D then we were all like, buuut we haven't even done our real presentation yet! hahaha then he was like, what you did just now was more than sufficient and he'd give us 9/10 no matter what. but we decided as a group to go on w our presentation anyway since we already prepared the slideshow and michelle added pretty pretty cherry blossoms and photos as well. so we were all hyped during the actual presentation and everyone did great :D hihi. while we were performing the sketch, some students who were still in the auditorium took out their phones and started recording, haha! mr al said he really liked the way we did our presentation and he said it's also really good that we dressed in the same colour, he said we were the true meaning of coalition hihi :D i'm really happy! thank god i had superb team-mates; julian, sean, eza, bernie, michelle and shuyi! :) i think we did great coz we decided to just hv fun w it and just portray how and who we really are, which is syok sendiri and tak malu :D and that's what set us apart from the rest, i think. hihi :) i swear abt 50% of the groups did the same topic which was tragedi 13 mei 1969 and loads of them did penjajahan jepun di tanah melayu. i'm so glad we stuck to doing things our way and it ended up way better than any of us expected :)

had class in the mrng and went home during lunch coz i had a really bad flu which was getting worse throughout the day. by now it's quite evident, how i get sick so easily and how weak i actually am, heh :( so anyway. went home and had a rest coz the family would be coming over for my birthday barbeque that night. henek, nek noon and aunty mila came first :) after that papa's bestfriend uncle joe came w his wife aunty shan and youngest son jojo. lol. yaya, aunty siti, uncle yan, aunty pat, eva and her two friends came too. lin, zaki and baby sara couldn't come coz lin and zaki already rsvp-ed to their friend's wedding that same night. had loads to eat; ikan pari, lamb, chicken, prawns, beef, potato salad, mushroom soup, salad, garlic bread, jell-o and strawberries and cake. mama couldn't get me the personalised my little pony birthday cake coz apparently it takes 2 weeks to prepare and there wasn't enough time. so i had to make do w/o the birthday cake i so wanted :( i was really excited abt it but it's okay i guess :( got a few presents and $$$ too which i sooo can't wait to spend! :D yayyy!

was kind of down coz i couldn't celebrate w syith or fanna and the rest :( syith coudln't come home think weekend coz he had tonnes of work to finish up and i knoww i said it's okay coz his work is important and i don't want to get in the way but the realisation of him realllllly not being around for my birthday wasn't that nice :( thought i could rely on my bffs to make me feel better but it turns out that they didn't hv anything prepared for my birthday, at all, so yeah. s'not like i was expecting it. okay maybe i was, a little. but they didn't come to the rescue like i thought/hoped they would. hmmmmm :(

27th of march 2008. i turned 19 today :) alishia, julian and eza took me out for lunch today. it was supposed to be a surprise but alishia was being so obvious :P and i had a pretty good idea of where we were headed. as soon as she said it starts w 'M' and has 6 letters i knew for a fact that we were going to monte's in bangsar :) hihi one of my fave restaurants. ordered heaps of food; chicken nachos, garlic and cheese escargot, mango & shrimp cocktail, sirloin steak, spaghetti carbonara, etc :) was bloated even before i decided to finally stop eating. thank you so much for the lunch and all the presents alishia, julian and eza :)

went back to college after lunch and they had a cake for me, w 1 big fat candle and 9 little ones :) thaaank you so much! hihi.

for dinner, mama cooked my fave lauks :) among them; daging kering, telur masin & ikan masin. yes i'm v easy to please and satisfy, hehe :) doesn't take much to make me happy. anyway. day 1 of my birthday weekend was awesome :)

had malaysian studies today, handed in our group project and got my period after class. speaking of my period. it so happens that the last time it occured was on the 13th of march and ended somewhere around the 19th or 20th. merely a week after and i get it again. something's not right. panicked a bit coz i hv a history having to do w all this menstrual shits. waited for mama to pick me up from college. eza waited w me in the lobby which was v nice of her. just wish she didn't hv to see me crying like an idiot coz my tummy hurt so much. some indonesian boys whom i always see around college looked on curiously and gave me the thumbs up sign asking whether i was okay or not. haha that was kind of cute and now i feel sort of bad for just turning away after giving them my "i am not in the mood" face. haha bitch. anyway. missed ms yvonne's replacement class that afternoon coz of my period cramps. went home, took some pills and texted syith saying that i felt like dying blablabla overall being my usual whiny self. gave up waiting for him to reply and fell asleep annoyed and in pain. woke up around 6 and syith still didn't reply. i know that even if he did reply my needy texts, there's no logical way that he'd make the tummy cramps go away but i'm sure a concerned text would've made me a bit happier in the least. never came. anywaaay. texted him again and again coz i was still having tummy cramps and i was in no mood to tolerate not being pampered at such a crucial time. sometimes i wish boys had periods too. then they'd know how much it hurts and how good it'd feel if they got a text saying something, ANYTHING to make 'em feel better. he finally replied around 8 something, saying that he'd left his phone in the room and it wasn't w him. i hate these kind of situations, situations where there's no one to blame. it's not like he deliberately chose not to reply but somehow that just wasn't good enough for me and i was in no mood to get all mad at him so i just said i had work to do and i'd talk to him later. which i think was a fairly good thing to do considering the fact that it was mere hours to midnight & my 19th birthday.

12 am. kakak comes into my room and wishes me happy birthday, followed by texts from friends and finally a phone call from syith. more texts came after that and to be honest i wasn't expecting edzmir and zariq to remember, but they did and that was nice :) syith's friends from perak wished me too and i thought that was really sweet of him, getting his friends to wish me & all :) qila, hanila, yusra and even fyra sang happy birthday through the phone and we talked for a while until qila's phone ran out of crdt and we continued texting instead, haha. fanna's wish was the most creative :) woke up the next mrng and papa wished me before going to work, and mama wished me as soon as i came down for breakfast :)

i haven't blogged in a while and it's not like i'm obliged to anyway and it's not like i hv regular readers LOL so i don't really know why i even bother. BUT. to satisfy myself w the content feeling of jotting down every single detail of things that might hv happened in the past few days, i shall continue to blog, later, that is. 

and,

thank you for the birthday wishes! some ppl might hv forgotten, or buat buat lupa. but it's okay :) i'm sure i'll remember yours. this yr's birthday was sort of the best, in a way. no i didn't celebrate my last yr of being a teenager w my BF nor my BFFs. but it was okay on a whole. seriously. BUT it could've been better. oh well. i've been blessed w great friends who unfortunately don't gv two fucks abt celebrating w me, or how much it would hv meant to me :) but like i said. it's ok. coz i had great 19th anyway. i was surrounded by family and ( not-so ) new faces that i've come to appreciate oh so dearly.

anyway.
i will write more later.

SUNBURST WAS AWESOME. ok let me repharse that. INCUBUS WAS AWESOME. left home around 3 and went to the curve for lunch and drinks. was raining when we were at dome so syith said hujan must be performing now HAHA lame. okay. reached bkt kiara around 6.45 almost 7 to avoid hujan and yes, hujan too. lol. bumped into lots of familiar faces too, hee. met up w hanila and ilyas and hung out w them for a while. watched one buck short kejap then went to watch the roots at the sky stage. they were sooo good. did some covers of sexy back and this is why i'm hot and byk lg lah. after that watched incognito at the sun stage and they were pretty good too but i wasn't really listening anyway lol. me and syith stayed at the sun stage while the others went to the sky stage for john legend. lol we reckoned that we'd just watch john legend from the big screen coz we didn't want to lose our front row betul betul depan railing places for incubus HAHA. waited waited waited for john legend to finish up and i'm glad he ended up his performance w pda and ordinary ppl and some other song i don't know lol. theeeeeeeeeen i turned around and there were soooo many ppl behind us dah. crazyy. imagine how hard it would've been to get to the front if we didn't wait there for so lama, lol. joseeeeee is so fucking hot i could just die lah. anyway incubus performed anna molly, megalomaniac, are you in, nice to know you, drive, vitamin, the warmth, circles, sick sad little world, wish you were here, stellar, pistola, my favourite thing, byk lagi laaah. too bad certain shade of green and summer romance and light grenades tak adaa. but their performance last night was even better than their concert way back in 2004 seriouslyy. maybe coz this time i was right infront :D :D :D and i was with syith myy very own self proclaimed brandon boyd and yess now i know for myself that he really does sound like brandon instead of having to believe it when i hear it from others, heh. ok lah boleh lahhh :P but as much as i like ok LOVE that brandon took off his shirt, it really lessens the chances of incubus coming to malaysia again :(  anddd. when they were done w their performance and were abt to leave the stage JOSE threw his drumstick into the crowd and this fat boy next to me snatched it from syith HAHA. so kesian. syith went on and on abt how the stick brushed his fingers but landed in the fat boy'd hands instead. lol. and he said it wouldn't hv been so bad if he hadn't touched the stick at all, at least takde lah geram sangat kan, lol :) bumped into alyaa after incubus and she was like "shit shaa kau dkt depan tadi, i saw you on the screen and syith was jumping up and down HAHA" hee. their performance was like a 3 fold utopian dream lah seriouslyy hahaha. anyway left around 2 and pergi makan duluu before going back coz we were sooo hungry but i still didn't finish my nasi lemak anyway, hee :)

picture time!!! all from my camera ;


syith making one of his many retard faces hihi, me and hanila. and ilyas sikit dekat belakang.


aaaaaaaah lucky baboon :(


tak sabar dah ni :D


BRANDON BOYD ladies and gentlemen :D




mr boyd and mr einziger :D :D :D


silhouette of ben and jose.




ben kenney!

recorded most of the songs that they performed as well but after watching the recordings i really don't see the point coz all we can hear is 50% of our own voices and some of syith's friends' voices haha.
 

went to the curve during lunch break coz eza had a sudden craving for cupcakes, lol. headed to cupcake chic and and and alishia said that my cupcakes taste better :D haha. went to genki sushi after that for our real lunch, hehee. no photos though :( the onee day that i decided to leave my camera at home and we just havee to go out for lunch, grrr. ended up not having islamic studies class coz mr al was m/i/a again. lol.

went to TGIF in subang parade to celebrate my bestest friend fanna's birthday :) too bad qila, hanila, athirah, afik, meme, zariq, edzmir and megat couldn't make it though. we made the best of it anyway :)


the very pretty birthday girl and her boyfriend, hap :)


lily, me, mama, mira, alyaa, yusra, ira & fanna <3


yusra, ira, fanna and hap.


yusra, celery sticks and ira :)


mama, mira and me.


caught in the act! hehe.


fanna with one of the cupcakes i made. and she's wearing the friendship bracelet me, mira and her have. i made it btw :)


alyaa and fanna with her cupcakes :)


she wanted to sit on the floor :|


she told us to touch her head? :|


guess i'm that heavy, lol :D


otw home.


mira, yusra and ira :)


baked by me and kakak, decorated by me me me :D

29th of february! special day :) two diff reasons, for me lah, hee. me and syith's 4th month together and coz it only comes around once every 4 years :) hehe! me, alishia, julian, sean, bernie, michelle, eza, shu yi and sin yee decided to hv lunch at delicious. initially to discuss our malaysian studies project, hee needless to say, not much discussing went on. we ate so much i felt like a momma cow :) after that we all signed our names on a place mat and brought it back to college and pasted it in our classroom, in honour and memory of the 29th of february, hee :) had an islamic studies exam afterwards. i didn't studyy, at all. lol. me, eza and natasha (this girl in my i/s class, from another course, business, i think, hee) kept swapping & sharing our answers. lol. i got 13/20. haha not bad :D higher than most of the JPA kids (the really, really smart kids who'll be going off to germany soon, hee) so i'm quite happy lah kan :)

classes hv started again :( and i've got shitloads of asses to do. starting from now i'll hv even less classes, lol. half day on monday, tuesday, wednesday and thursday. how cool is that :) but it doesn't take a genius know that more time = 100000x more procrastinating.

eza bought souvenirs for us from her trip to er, i'm not sure where she went but i think it's london? ok i dunno. she got me a printed t and a recipe book :) the t is so me i'm beginning to wonder if i'm that predictible. finally started on my drawing project last night. i think i've made good progress but then again i do tend to think rather highly of myself most of the time. good thing i've got the weekend to finish up my work since syith's not coming home.

and i've started this no-plastic-bags policy for myself and it feels good :) i knew my bigbigbags would come in handy. let's save the environment. let's be tree-huggers :)

i've got so much on my mind right now and everything's just fighting their way through the exit of my mind but i can't seem to put any of them into words. and i hate feeling like this coz i know i hv no one to talk to. syith's always busy and most of the time the things that are on my mind concern him so i can't exactly talk to him abt it now can i. i mean i can, and i hv, but. ok i'll just leave it at that. and besides. i really don't see the point of talking to anyone else abt it coz the things that're bothering me never get resolved anyway so what's the use. it just hurts even more to hear myself talking abt it out loud coz it just makes it sound 10000x worse than it's cracked up to be so i might as well just keep it to myself. i hate being stuck in a rut. stupid rut. go away :(

i want my syith. coz i'm needy like that. how you like me now? :( i don't really see how having him here right now would make my problems up and go but. ok i'll just leave it at that. again.

and i hv this problem of over-thinking and over-analyzing. and you do not even want to know how wild my imagination can get.

last night was the first time i drove, a lot. picked up farhana at her hse in sect 9 and we headed to mira's hse next, picked up mira & qila. went to uitm in sect 7 coz farhana had to get some stuff from her room there. drove back to bkt jelutong afterwards. hihi. didn't crash into anything and nothing crashed into me, alhamdulillah. lol :) syith dropped by the hse at 11 something. talked to him for a while. last night felt extra special for some reason. i'm glad he dropped by :) was really good to see him. thank you syith i love you :)

ate, washed up and the gossip fest began. found out so many new things. haha, shocking! was good to hang out w farhana, qila and mira. it's been so long since the 4 of us had a sleepover and talked abt nonsense and the way we were back then, which, come to think of it, wasn't so long ago. then qila stumbled upon the book. the book that had most of our photos, doodles and things like that. it was so sad and happy at the same time, going through the book. flashbacks of memories flooded our minds and we were laughing our heads off, constantly thinking things like, "what the hell were thinking" and "omggg ingat cantik sgt lah tu" etc etc etc :) lol. yes we did really stupid stuff back then and it's so funny when we think of it now. haven't been updating the book. somehow the book has its moments. it's like, during one period of time we'll be so psyched abt the book and fill every inch of it w every little detail of our lives and the next second we just sit back and keep the memories close to our hearts and minds instead of jotting them down. but the book really made me miss my friends super much. those whom i haven't seen in ages, those whom are no longer friends w me, those whom just drifted apart and those whom i constantly remember but hardly ever see. i miss school. i miss sitting beside farhana in class. i miss skipping class w farhana, afik, abu, alep, mel and edzmir. i miss sneaking out of class, crawling through the back door to go to the canteen to buy donuts and juice. i miss doing last minute homework in the dewan during assembly. i miss panicking when tak sempat siap. i miss getting my name called during perhimpunan for making noise and talking too much. i miss lining up and always being infront coz i'm short. i miss getting mad at the prefects that write down our names for not cutting our nails and having dirty shoes. i miss sleeping at the back of the class w farhana and the boys during addmath. i miss making fun of puan kashnani during math. i miss puan rosliyah constantly nagging me to clip my fringe aside and tie my hair properly. i miss volunteering to read aloud during english. i miss having recess at our table w the girls. i miss mintak tolong the tall kids belikan nasi w ayam at the canteen. i miss eating ice cream after every meal. i miss going to the toilet in one big group. i miss being the outcast w farhana in class. i miss hari sukan. i miss rumah merah. i miss making a fuss abt budak kawad and uniform and being competetive w the other rumah sukans. i miss winning perbarisan rumah sukan over and over and over again. i miss waiting at the pondok pak guard and walking to the dataran sinar w the girls. i miss ppl talking abt us when we walk past. i miss all the school dramas and gossips. i miss faking tummy aches to cut class and go home early. i miss buying milo ais and keropok lekor while waiting for mama to pick me up from school. i miss everything abt school. except the homework and exams. i miss being able to see my friends 5 days a week, sometimes more :(

my life has changed so much and sometimes it's hard to just realise that and be content. but i am. i love the way things are now. they could be better, but even if they aren't, i'm ok with that. i like the way i am now. but i don't like feeling safe. when i feel safe, i become sluggish. i'll be too content and i won't try harder. i hv great friends. the long gaps that we don't see each other are as if it's on pause. and once we meet up, things resume like the way the were. no awkward silence. no weird uncomfortable feelings. which is nice :) and i hv a great boyfriend. who has taught me things abt myself i didn't know i was capable of. he's not always there but it's okay coz i hv to learn to be independent and grow on my own. i need my learning and living space as well. but there are times when i'm needy and he's always swell abt it so it's just awesome and i love him more than a bucket of monkeys :) and my family's always great too. they make me mad sometimes but i know i do the same to them as well. but mama and papa are always so forgiving and understanding and they're just cool like that :) and kakak's just fabulous. how many big sisters would actually layan their kid sister w so much patience? :)

so i've sent qila to mmz this mrng and paan picked her up from there. went for lunch w mira and farhana and dropped mira off at syuk's hse and farhana waited for a cab to kl central. she's going to genting w hap :) hehe.

probably going out w syith later. i'm supposed to do my homework but so far all i've managed to do is cut out film strips. okay i exaggerated. i've only cut a film strip. yes, one. should get back to work now ;)

i baked the cake that mama wanted me to bake so badly. and it turned out ugly and bumpy and ugly. so she just left it in the oven and didn't even bother to serve it to her guest. THANK YOU mama, so much. and i woke up early for that. so while i was baking i asked syith if he wanted a cake, he said no coz he doesn't really like cake anyway, so okay i wasn't offended HEHE. decided to make a valentine's cum cny cake and bring it to college on monday but it got messy during the decorating process so i declared today as yasin my fat cat's birthday and made a birthday cake for him instead :) but papa and kakak won't be home tonight so we can't celebrate, heh.

went to ikea w kakak coz she wanted to get new curtains. ended up getting a new rug, plant and photo frames for herself as well. i bought another pair of curtains and boxes, a cute mirror and another spotted alligator. this one's for syith :)

having dinner w the girls tonight. i miss them so much :( but i feel bad for leaving mama at home alone. but then she was mean and didn't eat my cake so hmp :( besides, qila and hanila are coming back tonight so we might hv a sleepover or something w mira, farhana and ira as well. 

i was planning on starting on my drawing project tonight but i sort of hv other plans so i've put my project on hold again :| okay i'll start tmrw. i promise!

arif. says: can i just say something.?
zurisha says: yup
arif. says: u look soo lady like la now.
zurisha says: dulu i man like keee
arif. says: i guess everyone's growing up.
arif. says: no la.
arif. says: u used to be soo..kiddy like
zurisha says: HAHA oh okay lol
zurisha says: thanks?
arif. says: it's a compliment.
zurisha says: thanks!

oh well awep i guess all of us do hv to grow up, eventually :)


me and kakak in sesame street world :)

was supposed to meet up w the girls yesterday afternoon but i was asleep when farhana texted :( heh i miss them. went out w syith around 6, he wanted to go to pyramid but by the time we got there we felt like going to OU instead lol. so anyway otw, there were these kids walking on the sidewalk of the highway infront of pyramid and one of the boys was dribbling a ball then all of a sudden the ball bounces on to the middle of the street and his immediate reaction was to go after it. EEE he was right infront of our car. halfway there he snapped out of it and hesitated, and thank god syith has quick reflexes HEHE lol. i thought things like that only happened in the movies! or on tv, like some advert for road safety and things like that, heh. scaryy.

went to OU (yes, agaiiin) with syith and watched 'cuci' lol. was okay lah. hans isaac is so. grr :) lol. i hate i hate i HATE people who stare shamelessly at other people for no reason at all. wthell. aaand syith's annoyance towards THOSE sort of kids is starting to rub off on to me as well, heh. aaand it's so annoying how he's always thinking of the same thing when we see something um, funny looking or just plain weird. gila tak boleh cover, hehhh. and we saw this chinese kid flipping over turtles so that they were on their shells, with their tiny feet waving around in the air, looking all hopeless and miserable and mcm kesian gila but that kid just kept laughing as if it was bloody amusing and funny. i felt like kicking the kid but syith wanted to make him wear those big bulky standard two backpacks with like 10 textbooks inside and push him onto his back and see if he could get up. what the chicken, stupid kid. okaaay. wanted to hv dinner at the hainan chicken rice shop in uptown but it was closed, heh of course. so settled for the chicken rice at that hawker place in uptown instead. was super yummmmayh. hands down, best chicken rice i've tasted in a while. the kerabu mango was a bit diff too, usually people use the mango muda to make it but this shop used the ripe mangoes, like the already yellowish orangish type, lol. sedap gila but what the chicken! pedas gilaa.

was suppppposed to hv our "bobots" reunion tonight but tak jadi coz semua SENYAP JE. malas lah nak buat plans lain kali. it's so annoying when they get me all hyped up and then they're the ones who end up slacking off and diam je mcm bongok. ee. and how often do all of us hv hols during the same time kaaan. what the chicken. next time i'm just gonna leave the planning and anticipating up to you guys lah. lepas tu nak merengek cakap rindu lah apa semua. tp bila org nak jumpa jadi malas malas pulak. eeeee.

anyway going off to terengganu w the family tmrw. i don't want to goooooooooo. i mean i want to lah. but i want to bring along syith and farhana and mira and qila and yusra and hanila and ira aaaaaaaand semua lah with me. i can't wait to hit the beach though. if i had my way i'd be texting syith non stop but he'd never tolerate that and that's a bit toooo needy, even for me LOL. i'm gonna miss him :( at least i'll hv that smelly t shirt of his. heee. busuk gila i swear he'll never want it back hohoho :)

didn't do much yesterday. lazed around at home and watched old episodes of the oc. kakak had to literally drag me out of the house and force me to telawi with her. she wanted to get her brows threaded and i needed to so badly but i was so lethargic GILA MALAS type. so went anyway. had a bite to eat at alexis and saw eka and her friends. wanted to talk talk but i was having a bad day so yeah :/ went home after that and was restless. watched tv w mama and then got a text from syith. ajak pg makan but it was already 6 pm by then and i had dinner plans w kakak and the rest. picked him up anyway and went to SR to tapau something for him to eat. i'm telling you that boy doesn't eat until he really has to. makan banyak sikit, please? awkward silence and then we went home. went to farah and oyan's hse around 7.30 and waited for eva. headed to uptown after that for some satay by adam's request since he "can't get satay in melbourne" lol. there're a lottt of things you can't get in melbs ok adam, why satay? :S i'm not a big fan of satay but what the heck. went to guardian w eva for a while to get cough meds for syith, but i didn't hv a prescription and the so called pharmacy's only open until 5.30 pm so got the next best thing recommended by the salesgirl. heh. went home and dropped by syith's hse for a tiny while. i love making up :)